So I’ve been on a “break” from college since May and I NEED to go back. Basically I was completely unhappy at my old school, wasn’t in the major I wanted to be in, went into a rut, didn’t do the work, failed, and pretty much fucked up big time. I could have continued in Fall 2011 and gone on academic probation, but I didn’t because I just didn’t want to be there anymore and my parents supported(somewhat) my choice. Also I was scared and doubted myself. My cumulative GPA went from a 3.0 to a 1.34, and obviously that is just unacceptable. At my other colleges (went to 2 before this one and earned an associate degree) and high school I was always a good, attentive student, and even a kiss up to the teachers. I was always told I was an “asset” to the class and I had a lot of good ideas. My friends would always come to me for homework help and to look over their papers (I’m a damn good essay writer). Then I went to a school because it was supposedly a great school, affordable, and my dad wanted me to go there. I had no business being there, I hated it, became depressed, and then the above happened. Now I’m ready to get back in the swing of things and go to school and get my degree. I know I can concentrate and put in the extra effort to do beyond well. But the question is, where do I go? Who is going to take me after I fucked up like that? Did I completely screw myself over? I honestly think it would be good for me to go away to school and just be in a different environment with a fresh start. But is 21 too old to go away to school? And is it wise to take out loans to finish a year or two of college? If I go local, my parents will pay for it in full, but will I be happy at one of the two schools I can go to? I know I’m supposed to do what’s best for me, but I really don’t know what that is. Having worked retail for a few years, I know I could never be stuck in it the rest of my life like some of these people are and I’m destined to do more. I want to apply myself, and get involved, and not screw up anymore. I want to be happy. Not the happy for a day because I just bought a new something that I’m excited about, but truly happy. I think that will only come from getting my life together and getting a degree and a job I’m content with. All I know is if I’m not in school for the Fall 2012 semester, than I’m just digging myself deeper into a hole. I have to decide what to do and where to go, and I better do so soon.