Tomorrow begins my 1st day of Junior year of college. It’s also my first day at a new school. I’m scared, nervous, anxious, and excited all at once. Will I find my classes? Meet new people? Make a fool of myself? All I know right now is that I’m just trying to make the best of things and hopefully I like this school.
I went to Pace for a semester, it sucked, and half my dorm transferred out. But I did meet one of my best friends there and that made those few months worth it. I didn’t know where I wanted to go next, so I decided to go to Suffolk Community College, about 15 mins from my house. It was like high-school, most people weren’t there to make friends, and the classes weren’t always the best. But it taught me new things, taught me to be more accepting of others, and hasn’t just given me an associates degree, but somehow made me more confident.
In about a week I’ll be turning 20. Twenty. It’s amazing how fast time goes. I’ll no longer be a teenager, even if I am a kid at heart. It’s scary thinking what’s ahead, yet exciting with all the opportunities I can create. I can honestly say this past year has been the best year of my life. Not only have I made new connections, but new friends. I finally have an idea of what I want to do with me life and that terrifies me. I’ve been interning for idobi, I’ve had my writing published on there and people actually wanted to read it. I’ve had the chance to talk to bands I adore, and help spread the word about new ones I see potential in. I was chosen by Absolutepunk to go to Warped Tour and write about it. I saw some of the others who applied for my date and thought “no way are they’re going to pick me”, but they did. My name and review were posted on the front page of the site, a site visited by hundreds of thousands of people. The fact I have followers on here and twitter astonishes me as well, just knowing that people are interested enough to see what I post/write is amazing.
I’ve decided I’ll join the school’s newspaper. I’ll join some clubs. I’ll be active on campus. I’ll make new friends. I’ll get the local bands I love to play those monday night showcases at school. I’ll be okay in a lecture hall with 200+ people. I’ll take risks, make mistakes. I’ll have confidence and a positive attitude. But most of all, I’ll be myself.
So Stony Brook University here I come. You may have some challenges at first, but I’m ready to overcome those and stand tall.
It’s boring. It’s boring as fuck. It’s boring, it’s degrading and I used to think people who would say that hip-hop was degrading were stupid, but it is. Mainstream hip hop, mainstream pop music, the shit you see on the radio, the shit you see on TV, is degrading to you as the person looking at it, simple as that. Humans should not treat each other that way. Men should not treat women that way. Men should not treat men that way. I don’t want to sound like I’m bitching or like I’m some PTA mom, because that’s not me. I’m just saying it’s so easy to step back and say, “Is anything reasonably positive happening? No? Well at least there’s the Black Eyed Peas.” Fuck that. … But everyone thinks they’re artistic, everyone thinks they’re smart and people still get fucking everything twisted, all the time. People are fucking dumb that’s why the music that’s popular is popular. That’s why everything sucks all the time, every day. That’s why you have to notice it, step next to it, ignore it, and live your life happy, every day. And that’s what I try to do.
- P.O.S. on the state of popular hip-hop/rap music today.
So I’ve done a good amount of shopping in the past few weeks and I figured I’d share because, well frankly I’m bored. I wouldn’t say I have a definitive style, it just varies a lot on my mood and where I’m going, but I do think I have pretty diverse taste. So here we go:
The other day I went to the outlets and did a bit of shopping there, but restrained myself from buying too much.
Bright Peach/Black Nike Dunk High - $26 at Nike Outlet. I don’t know how often I’ll wear these, but I love the colors and they were super cheap.
Nike Air Max Trainers for the gym. My mother nicely bought these for me from the outlet. The little white straps are snakeskin embossed and the pink is seriously highlighter pink, they’re awesome.
Juicy Couture bow earrings I’ve been wanting forever and a Juicy heart bracelet. (this picture sucks). Buy one get one 50% off, woo.
So I work at Macy’s which means I see when everything goes on sale plus I have my discount and can use coupons and I’m at the mall all the time so this is all just a recipe for bad spending habits.
Hence, I got this Michael Michael Kors bag for like $100, which is pretty great. I love the print so much (more red irl) and think it’s good for all seasons.
And I work in shoes, which is both good and bad. Blowfish wedges - originally $70, got for $24, MMK sandals originally $98 got for $40ish, Roxy sandals originally $30, got for $7.
Anorak from Nordstrom Anniversary Sale, Material Girl by Madonna plaid/lace top which is awesome.
Various tanktops from Delia’s, Macy’s, and Charlotte Russe.
Skirts from H&M, $10 each woo.
And I totally left some stuff out(more shoes, shirts, shorts, etc.) but yeah, I obviously have problems and can’t resist a good deal or save money. =/